“One Look Back”
SAI LEFT HIS MOTHER TO WHITTLE, FINDING IT TOO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE. The most he had been able to eke out was “I love you” and an assurance that he was going to keep trying.
But walking back into the house, he realized there was more to say. More that he had to say, to set things right. And Hanako had given him the perfect idea.
He plucked a paper from Hanako’s needlessly tall stack on the table and took it to his room. He had a quill there and took to writing a letter of his own, but this one wouldn’t travel far.
Sai spent what felt like hours on the thing, worrying over the phrasing, and repeating again and again in it that he would be okay. This was something he had to do and something that Dad was calling him to do. He apologized for not telling her earlier, and that this was the only way he could ensure that he could escape Rakuken. By the time he finished it, the dappled sun stretched for the horizon. It would be time soon. He deposited the letter beneath one of his mother’s projects and hoped it would not be long before she moved it.
Hanako had long finished writing her letter; she had dozed off on the table, snoring quietly. He stroked her hair and took the sealed letter. “Dad” was scribbled in neat handwriting on the front. Sai grinned. He slipped it into his bag and replaced it with the wooden, carved windpipes he had made for her on the hilltop three days ago.
Sai leaned next to his sister’s ear and whispered, “Goodbye. I love you.”
Hanako stirred, but did not wake.
As she had said, Theo was nowhere to be found. It’s for the best, thought Sai as he sat, anxious, in his room. Theo would figure him out. He had barely evaded Mirai’s prying eyes; if Theo took too long a look at him, he’d figure out exactly where he was planning to go and when. Sai assured himself that Theo was busy and gathered up the last thing he needed for his trip: a sack of money.
Eleven jins and six gabs. It was half of his savings. Sai was grateful that he hadn’t converted his twenty jins into a fela, a shiny gold coin emblazoned with the steam caverns of the mountains. He stuffed the coins into a small bren-skin pouch and strung it to his belt. A shiver danced through his hands and arms as he closed the pouch and stood upright.
That was all he needed. He had said his goodbyes—as best he could, to those that would listen—and had packed all he needed. He hadn’t found Theo, but that was okay. Distance would do them good.
He trusted his mother’s letter would take care of things with Lev. His friend would by soon enough, and Mom could tell him everything. If Sai tried to tell Lev in person, it wouldn’t go down well. Lev would blab to Rane, then to his dad, and it would probably get back around to Mirai before their mother even had a chance to explain. Lev would forgive Sai once he thought about it.
Mom was soundly asleep, her door pulled tight. He tucked a sleepy Hanako into her bed, and Mirai was still awake, working something by candlelight in her bedroom. It was the perfect time.
He hesitated at the door. It would be spans before he saw this place again. Sai tried to etch every corner and curve into his memory, breathing in the scent of home, and felt the old sturdy floor through his boots. He stood there for longer than he had expected, hand on the doorknob, trembling at the thought of leaving it all behind. Eventually, he took one more lungful of air, pulled his hunting cloak over his head, and stepped outside.
It was quiet. Very little light penetrated the Tree during the day. During the night, there were several moons to guide him. Only five of the eleven were visible tonight, all in different phases of round and crescent. The closest moon, the Watcher, was full tonight. Sai stared at it through shifting leaves, catching only glimpses of its soft blue curves. The sun strengthened him, encouraged him. The light from the moons was of an entirely different quality. Something about them made him want to go back inside. Staring up at the dark sky, feeling the night breeze wash over him, Sai felt wet on his cheeks.
He was crying.
Sai sniffled, pulled his cloak tight to wipe his tears, and left the protection of the porch. His travel bag over his left shoulder and the mystery box over his right. The hunting bow was slapping his thigh as he walked; adjusting it didn’t help. He would move it when he had time. For now, Sai had a mission: escape from Rakuken.
He set his shoulders, rolled his neck, and reached for the box on his back. The white thread appeared with a little focus. This was part of his father’s invitation, so he would have to trust it. He breathed in, breathed out, and started following the ethereal thread’s path.
It led him first off his home tower, then across the creaking bridge. Sai stopped in the middle to glance back one last time at his home. Lev’s house stood near the bridge, not a light within. Forgive me, friend. I’ll bring something back for you and Rena.
The white thread continued past the agriculture pillars and onto the one connected to the Windy Mountain, which he and Dad had crossed just two days ago. Sai watched for the patrol guards; even during the night, this was the one safe way in or out of Rakuken. By Reza Tharon’s rule, it had to be guarded at all hours of the day and night. One guard stood at the gate, but Sai had prepared for that. There were no lanterns patrolling the outer perimeter.
The last thing he had grabbed at home was from his father’s study: two pitons and forty feet of rope. Sai approached the ledge, gentle beams of moonlight outlining the point where land ended and open air began. There, he wedged both pitons in a crag. He cinched the rope beneath the piton’s hooked head, hammered the metal pin into the rock, and pulled the rope tight, then dropped the free end of the rope over the ledge.
Rope uncoiled freely into the night air. Sai wondered idly how he would recover it. By the time the rope hit the ground, he decided he could—and so would—not. Now came the tricky part.
The guard at the gate rested his head against the archway leading out of Rakuken. Still no lights in the forest. He was clear.
Sai approached the craggy ledge on hands and knees. He pulled on the rope once, twice. Still tight, he assured himself. You and Mirai talked about this enough times. It will work. He swallowed, feeling lightheaded. He wasn’t even off the plateau yet. If I fall, it’s forty feet. People survive those. Usually. Lev survived it. A moment of silence as Sai set his feet on the ledge and tugged on the rope one more time. He can summon the wind. Doesn’t exactly count.
If he sat here all night worrying over whether he could get down, he never would. Better to do it… he thought, and dropped. It was only a couple of feet, but it felt like ten. He pulled tight on the rope, feet set against the side of the pillar, and felt his lifeline taught in his hands.
It held! He slipped down, all the strain on his hands and shoulders, and found he could lower himself a few feet at a time. His palms burned at the friction, but soon enough, he lowered himself far down so that he could drop. Sai lowered himself to the bottom, just to be safe. When his feet hit the ground, his tight chest shoved out a breath.
Still no lights dancing in the forest. He could make it. He would make it. Sai grinned, pulled his bags close so they wouldn’t jangle, and started toward the perimeter of the hunting grounds.
Further in, golden light from guards’ lanterns poked through the trees. Sai stayed far away from the beams and walked slowly, keeping his head low. His heart beat madly in his chest. Sai pressed a hand against his cloak, sure that the rapid, intense beats would draw the guards.
But he crossed the draped forest without drawing any attention. One more line of trees, and he would have traveled further than ever before. Sai approached one, placed a hand on the weather-smoothed alester bark, and stared at the shadowy form of Rakuken behind him. Goodbye, Mom. Goodbye Hanako, and Mirai. And Theo. I’ll be back.
The night air was cold in his throat. He took in a lungful of the crisp stuff regardless, breathing deeply in, then out.
A figure stepped from the shadows. Sai stuttered back and scrambled for the knife at his belt. Upon a second, frenzied look, the angles and ridges of the face made the figure’s identity obvious: Theo.
Moonlight reflected off the sharpened edge of the Wargrave halberd planted firmly by his side. An unlit lantern hung from his belt. His expression was like the blade of a razor: thin, flat, and all edges. “What are you doing out here?” Sai hissed. “Is this where you’ve been all day?”
Theo stared at the box over Sai’s shoulder. His voice was low and grave. “I can’t let you leave with that.”
Sai grasped the leather strap of the box. “You don’t even know what’s inside it.” You can’t stop me, Theo, he responded in his mind.
Theo jarred his halberd from the earth and, hefting it in one hand, circled Sai. “How could you not?” Sai opened his mouth; he didn’t have a retort. All he had was shame. Had his brother figured it out before him without even inspecting the box? Sai clutched it close to his side. Theo’s eyes lingered on it. He paused mid-stride. “You can’t feel them?”
“What? This is mine. Dad entrusted it to me.”
Theo took the halberd in both hands. “Sometimes, even Dad makes mistakes.”
He jabbed the polearm at Sai’s stomach. Sai narrowly dodged back, bending at the waist to pull his body away. He slipped on a root, caught himself with a firmly placed foot, then stumbled back as the halberd came at him from the opposite direction. Sai took three steps back and splayed his fingers.
“What are you doing?!” His voice rose over the quiet din of the forest, making lights stir between the trees. One of them approached.
Theo cast a look behind him. “Taking what’s rightfully mine.”
Sai turned on one heel and ran. He heard the thundering of footsteps behind him—or was that his heart?—but he kept running. He may be loaded down with bags, but Theo had a duty to stay in the forest. Go much further, and he would betray that duty on his first assignment.
Sai ran with all the strength and speed in his legs. His brother wasn’t one for giving up easily. Tonight, neither would Sai. He pumped his arms, his legs, and ran until his chest burned and he wanted to collapse. Then he kept running.
He didn’t check whether Theo was behind him. But neither did he feel a tug on his bags nor blood dripping from a cut on his legs or arms. He just kept running.
Sprinting through black trees, stumbling over stumps and roots getting in the way, further and further down the mountain, Sai ran. He knew it would take a while to reach the bottom; he didn’t think about that. He only thought about running and staying ahead of Theo.
Gnarled roots snagged his feet and knees, and he crashed to the ground, heaving, shaking, chest rapidly rising and falling. Sai pushed himself up by his elbows, scooted away, and for the first time all night looked behind him.
No one was there.
That was Chapter 6, the last chapter of The Final Hero that I'll post on here! Sai is safely out of Rakuken, but things between him and Theo haven't been worse. If you enjoyed these chapters, I hope you'll keep an eye out for the full book!
Thank you so much for reading! Please, feel free to check out the short stories around; there are even some set in the world of Hearth! I'll post a Welcome to Hearth page soon enough to give some insight about the world as a whole.
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